Nightlight Revelations

“The truth of my existence tugs at my veins… and even I am surprised at the hand She has had in my making. In retrospect, so many things fall into place now that never did before. So many of the seemingly unentangled choices I have made, demands I put upon myself, in the full context of my being, only now begin to make sense.

M’Lady Night, She who wears the Stars in Her hair, The dangerous, deadly, hidden, beautiful mystery of every Desert Night… She who claimed me as Daughter before my existence ever stitched into being.

As dusk starts falling every day, I can literally feel my veins itch with Her. At night, under the desert stars, She fills me to the point of wanting to break. She is literally embedded within me, and so I carry M’Lady Night with me even in the light day. Her voice whispers with every shadow, her children carry out Her unfathomable will at every turn, and I stand anchored, one foot in the World of What is Not, the other in What She will make Be.

None of it works, unless all of it works together… My use as a doorway to Her only makes since when I am anchored within My Desert. For I am it’s child as well, forged under the heat of it’s imminent Sun, my blood-splattered legacy soaked up within the sand and the thorns that I have always loved.

The suddenness of this revelation is going to, again, remake me. Only this time, I know I will survive, and come out of the other side intact… More intact than I have ever been.”

~A~

… just some sinister morning musings.

 

“So pitch its sunk into the bone
Need my kings of the dark and unknown
Such a painful and beautiful fate
I’m proof that its never too late

So many dark things inside of me
Are fighting to set themselves free
I feel hate pouring out of my skin
As my devils recount every sin

So I’ll spill the red life out of you
Lick it up and you won’t have a clue
That all of the light kept inside
Nothing more than a beautiful lie”

~A~

Splinter

“Like Shards of the angry sun
Splinter out and come undone
Feel the hate seething in you
I know what you’re going through

I use to stand in the light
Craved a world that wasn’t so bright
So let’s turn our back on the sun
Let this light crawl till its done

Our power twists in the dark
My power rests in my heart
Together we shall become one
Not the shards of the angry sun”

They Rise

When Demons rise

And Kingdoms Fall

Who is left to save you all?

 

Salvation lost

Damnation found

Our curse upon the bloodstained ground

 

Your weak are lost

The strong are here

Demonic army you all fear

 

So nail yourself

All up for us

Drink from this unholy cup

 

These Demons Rise

Your Kingdoms Fall

And we shall feast upon you all

Of things hidden within my soul

Enchanted
Daylight falls to dusk
Shadows and beauty surround me
Watch everything turning to dust

Seductive Death
He stands at my back
Unwilling to yet take his hand
He awaits in the inky and black

My wings unfurl
Soaking up the power of night
Might as well be a goddess
As I burn in the blue of twilight

This power spinning
My will in this unlighted place
My lover is smiling beside me
Evil written all over his face

One breath
And my magic comes alive
Shattered and remade
Everything that you were becomes mine

This is me
With the mask of humanity gone
Eternal, infernal, and beauty
Wrapped up in the silk of His song

 

~A~

Henosis is a dangerous pursuit

…one that leaves your skin empty of glory and good for a while.

But as I sit here, with my pain and my flesh angry from bleeding, the nature of the gift that is my humanity sits closer to the surface than is usual. An introspective pain all its own, made brighter by having Her Shadow permeate me with purpose just hours past.

… And so I sit, eye to eye with the past ghosts of myself, knowing that this pain too will pass into nothing.